24.

I have this really bad habit of overdoing things.

Like the time that I learned to bake apple-cinnamon muffins.

I baked them twice a week because I was scared that I would forget how.

(I didn’t.)

Or when I saw my favourite shirt on sale, I bought it in every colour “just in case”.

I don’t even like sky blue.  Or burnt orange.

And then there was that time that I bought 13 bottles of shampoo on sale for $3.49.

For some reason I was really worried that I would run out of shampoo.

I had to hide those from my mom or else she’d tell me I was crazy.

The trouble is, I don’t know when enough is enough.

Actually that’s not true – I do.

But try explaining ‘enough’ to the voice inside my head that says “keep going, keep going, just once more, now another”.

It’s like, if I don’t overdo it, then somehow I’m not enough.

… I guess the trouble is, I don’t know when I’m enough.

-J

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