Addicted.
Happy 2018!
Today I want to touch on a personal topic - addictions. This isn’t going to be a shocking reveal
about drugs or anything like that. But I
do want to talk about an addiction I’ve been struggling with for a long time –
shopping.
When I was younger, my parents had a very “be happy with
what you have” attitude towards life, but I always wanted more. I wanted to keep up with the lifestyle that I
thought was cool – a lifestyle that involved eating out, wearing the most in
style attire, and spending money without a care. Once I got old enough to have my own job, I
began to live this dream life. In
university I spent money carelessly on food on a daily basis, and I shopped at
least once per week in order to keep up with the trends.
My spending only really got out of hand within the last
year. I don’t know what triggered it –
it is likely related to stress. This
past year, I struggled with spending in a way that I am really too embarrassed to
share. But when I self-reflected on my
behaviour, I knew it was time to change.
For me, spending money is not about want, it’s now about
need. I feel like making purchases fills
some kind of void, one that I need to fill with something else. It’s the “something else” that I’m struggling
with though. I don’t really know what to
do.
The purpose of this post is really to just share that I’m
struggling with you all. It’s quite
personal, so I know that putting this out there is a bit of a risk, but I’m
willing to do it. It’s time to change,
and not because it’s a New Year. It’s
time to change because if I don’t, I don’t know where I’ll end up.
Xoxo, Jayy.
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