Scared Part II.Thursday, January 28, 2016
At the beginning of this month, I talked about pushing myself out of my comfort zone, and trying something different. I have been preparing to do just that, not by writing an academic article, but by sharing something very important to me on this blog starting February first. I thought I would share part of it on my Tumblr blog as a trial run, and so far two people have commented saying that they were touched by it.
And now I'm shaking, because I am reminded of two things:
1. I am not alone. I do not feel the way I feel alone, I do not face the challenges I face alone. Other people feel the same way. And that is making me emotional.
2. By sharing myself with others, I can at the very least remind them that they are not alone either. And that makes me emotional, because that means I matter. The things I do, the things I say, they matter. And that is also making me emotional.
Whenever I share personal stories or feelings, my entire body begins to shake. I don't know what it is - probably anxiety taking over. But right now, I am also happy. And anxious. And scared. I am about to push myself out of my comfort zone, and do something I would have never dreamed of doing a month ago.
It's coming. February first. I hope you like it.
Cheers to shaking.
Cheers to breaking outside of the box.
Cheers to me calming down enough to be able to sleep.
- xoxo, Jayy